First blog... and it is filled with cheerful optimism! *coughs*

As graduation draws near I find myself more and more worried about my future. Looking back on high school there is so much I would give almost anything to change. I know it's impossible so I try not to dwell on it... but it's difficult.
I'm pretty positive I'm still going to go to Arcadia University in the fall. I don't see why I shouldn't either. They gave me a great scholarship and offered to let me spend my first semester studying abroad (!) in Ireland, Scotland or England. Which is amazing...
How many schools would offer that? And for the regular tuition price...
And Arcadia has a beautiful campus of their own and by the looks of it a great theatre program... but I keep picturing myself transferring out of there. I don't know why, but the thought won't leave my head. At first I was so excited about Arcadia but now I wish I had applied to some of the other schools I was considering.

I don't know. I guess I'm just worried. It seems like such a bad time to leave... no matter how much I may need to get away.
My home life... is a mess. I am trying to find some source of comfort, but nothing seems to work anymore.